Sopor Aeternus: Ich töte mich jedesmal aufs Neue, doch ich bin unsterblich, und ich erstehe wieder auf; in einer Vision des Untergangs (1994)

Birth-Fiendish Figuration

To the light...
I cannot beg a light...
Oh, I am supposed to beg a light...


Exposed with hands as empty as the opposite space,
Crawlingly we move to where the final station lies.
To whom is the debt that we are, we are forced to pay,
Real faces dare to appear only when we turn away.
Truth reveals itself - reveal yourself!

A face ordained to hypocrites;
We know the masks, their artificial smiles.
Mind's black eyes should break the lies.

Distorted pictures are all transparent to us;
Phantasmagoria, such a useful weapon,
Ineffectual against us...
Enemies with the knowledge of truth.
...Truth makes me sick,
What a wretched play!

Paralysed by flesh and bones,
Condemned to vegetate,
Condemned to stay alone.
Helplessly we are escaping, we're clinging to...
Stranded at the shores of the infamed side.
Our distress in perfection, trials and tribulations...
Preferring our pain we stay and die...

Do you know my name?


Tanz der Grausamkeit

Tongue of silence, lick my lips,
Steal my thoughts and steal my pride.
My soul lies offered as I'm waiting,
Intoxicate me when you step inside.
Hold my hands, my hands are trembling,
Your charming beauty takes my breath.
Fragrant perfumes veil my senses,
Hold my hands, sweet tormentress!
Out of darkness we all came from,
Flight from darkness is in vain.
I'm the banquet, I'm delicious,
Into darkness we'll fall back again...

Meister des Mordes, nimm meine Augen,
An diesem Ort kann ich nicht sein,
Strecke mich nieder, zerschlage mein Haupt.
Meister des Mordes, schenke mir den Tod.
Meister des Mordes, erhöre mein Flehen,
Beende die Leiden, nimm den Schmerz von mir.
Öffne die Tore, es ist für mich Zeit,
Meister des Mordes, dieser Tanz ist Grausamkeit.
Meister des Mordes, nimm meine Augen,
Gefangen im Fleische, erbärmlich und alt.
Führe mich fort in die Dunkelheit,
Vater meiner Seele, diese Tanz ist Grausamkeit.
Vater meiner Seele, reiß' mich in den Tod...

Es tut mir leid...


Im Garten des Nichts (A Secret Light In The Garden Of My Void)

Wage nicht, mich zu berühren!
Dies ist der Garten des Nichts.
Du kannst hier niemanden täuschen,
Niemand belügen,
Dein Herz ist aus Glas
Im Garten des Nichts...
Im Garten des Nichts...
Im Garten des Nichts...
Hier bist "Du" wertlos, nichts als Fleisch.
Fleisch für die Bestien
Im Garten des Nichts...
Im Garten des Nichts...

Deine Schreie verhallen hier ungehört,
Und Deine Hoffnungen von eigener Hand zerstört.
Im Garten des Nichts...
Im Garten des Nichts...

Ein geheimes Licht schläft in der Finsternis,
Öffne Deine Augen, erkenne wer Du bist!
Brenne und werde zu Licht!


I close my eyes and breath the light within myself...
It has been there all the time.
How blind I'd been, I just couldn't see.
I've searched the outside for the answer -
...It was me... to be free... to be free...

Ein geheimes Licht schläft in der Finsternis,
Öffne Deine Augen, erkenne wer Du bist!
Brenne und werde zu Licht!


Steig' hinab in die H&oumllle,
Damit Du erkennst, woher Du kommst,
Damit Du erkennst, wohin Du gehörst.
Fühle den Schmerz, fühle den Haß,
Fühle die Qual, die Einsamkeit.
Erhebe Dein böses Auge!
Du bist Dein böses Auge,
Und wohin du auch schaust,
Stets erblickst Du Dich selbst.

Öffne Deine Augen!!!
Nicht Fleisch bist Du, steige hinab in das Fleisch,
Doch nicht Fleisch bist Du!!!
Nicht Dunkelheit bist Du, darum falle,
Falle hinab in die Dunkelheit! - und träume!
Doch hüte Dich vor dem Schlaf, dem ewigen Schlaf!

Ein geheimes Licht schläft in der Finsternis,
Öffne Deine Augen, erkenne wer Du bist.
Brenne und werde zu Licht!
Reich' mir die Hand, denn wir sind das Band.
Die Brücke, der Bogen zwischen Unten und Oben.
Brenne und werde zu Licht!

So sei es sein!


Time Stands Still (...But Stops For No-One)

That little mountain raises
While others dissolve into a plain,
Time redefines itself
And falls in sadness grain by grain...

"Time heals all the wounds",
The two-tongued echoes seem to say,
But nothing, nothing changes,
The pain remains, won't pass away...

I went weak as I grew old,
And time itself has made me slow,
And as I close my eyes in sadness,
A thousand seasons come and go...

Mighty enough to cover all
And also cruel enough to reveal,
But the wounds and scars I carry
Neither force nor kiss can heal...

Time heals nothing, nothing, nothing,
Spitefully turns away and laughs,
Leaves you half-broken and in defiance,
Is only added another scar...

Call it "blind" how I am writhing,
Counting hours, centuries...
The pain, it glows and grows in tides,
Unable to vanish, unwilling to cease...

Time heals nothing, nothing, nothing,
Pushes 'till we're diving into different flesh.
Time heals nothing, nothing, nothing
In the coldness of the inner flames...

Time's fingers claw, I am losing hold,
There is no hope for me on earth.
Time either still or maybe rushing,
In any case it will turn out worse...

Time is fleeting, time stands still,
It stops for no-one and we're trapped within.
Though I may dream of the light,
I'm falling back to the left-hand side...

How I wish that I was dead
And rest in final peace,
But even the luxury of death
Can't cure the wounds
Time cannot heal...


Do You Know My Name? (Falling ...- reprise)

I shattered all the mirrors, fearfully hoping
That they won't be able to remember my face.
Darkest of all light, most greedy to embrace,
Surrounded by demons and breathing in life.

I don't want to be a perverted temple of my Lord...
Though his hands I am, I have forgotten
How to hear or understand his words...


Between the tides the time seems endlessly,
The force of habit or whatever pulled me back
Into a well-known pain.
What uses the knowledge of my progressions
When the old world is gone?
Without a new "inside", with my new-found life,
I am homeless again...

I don't want to be a perverted temple of my Lord.
Through his flesh I am, I have forgotten
How to hear or understand his words...
I am falling down, back to the lowest spheres...


Do you know my name? Did you answer?
I just cannot hear...
I just cannot hear...


Penance & Pain

Living... have a look at the living!
Dancing blindly, losing balance...
Will you choose pain,
Or will you prefer "the penance"?
Penance?
Living... have a look at the living!
Dancing blindly, losing balance...
Will you choose pain,
Or will you prefer "the penance"?
The penance?
The living and the undead...
The living and the undead...
Penance,
Penance,
Penance and pain...
Living... have a look at the living!
Dancing blindly, losing balance...
Will you choose pain,
Or will you prefer "the penance"?
Penance?
Light and dark,
Two paths ahead:
Death to Rebirth,
Or "life undead".

One for living,
One for the undead.
The undead...
Living... have a look at the living!
Dancing blindly, losing balance...
Will you choose pain,
Or will you prefer "the penance"?
The penance?
Light and dark,
Two paths ahead:
One for living,
One for the undead.
One for the undead.
Death to Rebirth,
Or "life undead".
Living... have a look at the living!
Dancing blindly, losing balance...
Will you choose pain,
Or will you prefer "the penance"?
The penance?
Light and dark,
Two paths ahead:
Death to Rebirth,
Or "life undead".
Life undead...
One for the living,
For the living...
Only for the living...
One for the undead.
One for the undead.
Life on one side,
The Undead on the other side...
The darkest side.
Living...
One for living...
Living... living... living...

I don't belong to your side anymore,
I'm one of the Undead...
...damned... forgotten...


Holy Water Moonlight

Undead and still suffering, always suffering...
Wooden stake impales my heart,
Driven through this ancient heart...
Holy water, heal my wounds!

Everything has changed its side...

The tear of the Devil shed a light upon my heart,
But unfaithful sneaking eyes betrayed my soul,
Befouled the dark...

The night is sweet, never deceptive or of treachery.
The cruel light in the wake of the dawn is my true enemy...
I've seen my fall... end of it all.
Holy water, shed a light upon my life!
Holy water, everything has changed its side...

Your silver rays brought me back to life,
Gifted me, gave me a new sight.
Holy moonlight...


Beautiful Thorn

Ivy kissed the shadows,
As mo(u)rning lusts for dew,
She with lips of sweetest pain,
Lies in wait for you.

With the dawn she went away,
Before mist veils the earth.
Nothing remains, except the wounds -
The only gift of hers.
Of hers...

For themselves they should despair,
The graves lie in silence, but we're not there.
When there are voices close to hear,
No reflection haunts the mirror.

With the dawn we went away
Before mist veils the earth,
Nothing remains, except the wounds -
The only gift of me and her.


The Feast Of Blood

The Fiend...

Today they've found another one,
Lifeless on the cold subway-floor.
His face was turned to his back -
The way the others died before.

Drain the mortals to their last convulsion
And veil the ancient cause,
Let off of them and see them tumble,
Let off and enjoy their fall!

The Feast of Blood...
The Feast of Blood...
This mortal nectar...
The Feast of Blood...

This mortal nectar, that warms from the inside,
This very special sort of wine.
So delicious... let it flow, devour!
Oh, so divine!..
And the feast shall never end,
Until we all descend...
And the feast shall never end,
Until we all descend... in hell.


Dark Delight
(dedicated to Victor Bertrand)

Hands folded in a prayer,
A rosary embedded in-between.
Tonight I'll join you in your sleep...
I'll bring you back to life this night,
It's meant for the flesh at least.
I'll join you in your sleep.
Come up, I hear your voice, this is not me.
I'm not aware of what I'm doing!
I'll shiver at the recollection
When I'll awake with the soil on my hands...
I know, they will find you,
Fallen to sleep again
Between the mounds and crosses.
Tomorrow night it will be just the same,
It will be just the same...


Baptisma

Shivering with awe and delight,
"Here is my throat", I said,
As I bowed my head in silence to him.
Behold my white flesh
Shining in the velvet darkness.
Take me now and I will be,
Yes, I will be yours forever...
Take me now and I will be,
Yes, I will be yours forever...

There I stood bare and willing;
As the blood - my blood -
Was streaming down this naked body,
My naked body...
Gushing out of the wounds,
Enfeebled I was sinking to the floor.
Gushing out of the wounds,
Enfeebled I was sinking to the floor.
"Cold", I thought, "so cold the stones...
Colder I'll be soon..."
"Cold", I thought, "so cold the stones...
Colder I'll be soon..."
Still not enough... still not enough...

This is the moment, my beautiful beloved one,
The time has come, to send a farewell to the sun,
To cross the threshold
And leave all these mortal dregs behind.
You shall be flesh of my flesh and blood of my blood...
Flesh of my flesh and blood of my blood...
Let me take what you have to give,
Let me take and you shall receive.
Let me take what you have to give,
Let me take and you shall receive.
Feel the beat of my dead heart...
Feel the beat of my heart...
And drink, as I have done,
Drink, my beautiful beloved one!

A new flower in the ancient bouquet.
Another rose in the garden of darkness,
That will never see the day,
That will never see the day...


Birth-Fiendisch Figuration (The Inner Hell)

I cannot beg a light...
Oh my... beg a light...


Exposed with hands as empty as the opposite space,
Crawlingly we move to where the final station lies.
To whom is the debt that we are, we are forced to pay,
Real faces dare to appear only when we turn away.
Truth reveals itself - reveal yourself!

A face ordained to hypocrites;
We know the masks, their artificial smiles.
Mind's black eyes should break the lies.

Distorted pictures are all transparent to us;
Phantasmagoria, such a useful weapon,
Ineffectual against us...
Enemies with the knowledge of truth.
...Truth makes me sick,
What a wretched play!

Paralysed by flesh and bones,
Condemned to vegetate,
Condemned to stay alone.
Helplessly we are escaping, we're clinging to...
Stranded at the shores of the infamed side.
Our distress in perfection, trials and tribulations...
Preferring our pain we stay and die...

[...]
Perfect day to end this life...
Crucifix is waiting -
Any knows my name?
Lucifer is waiting -
Any knows my name?